"If two people are in love, you can do nothing about it."
♥ Monday, January 31, 2011
u want to umm umm which who ever its up to u.
i know ur just tired and u need a break.
u may fall for the girl and in the end u wont want me anymore.
but no matter what, my decision still stay firm.
i`ve never use any ah lian method on anyone before.
u know i can do it but i nv did that before.
and i told u im happy with him for one day.
it`s just a crush and i know it wont last, i decided to be true to u.
and dont wana lie about how i felt. never expect it will turn out like that.
not picking up cause i hope i wont feel more, and nothing else.
i never mean to compare u with other ppl.
i know the girl mean something to u, u even started twitter because of her.
and i wont do things to harm ur friends.
im just really sorry
12:04:00 am
♥ Sunday, January 30, 2011
he told me he has someone in mind and ask me to forget everything. i cant believe he fall in love so fast and could just let go of our 4 years relationship .i told him im not that type of girls where guys can let u fuck and pretend nothings ever happen before.hurting myself and going through it just hurts. i cant let go easily cause there was a connection and its holding on the me. there was not connection between u and ....
yes, it`s my fault that i always say i want to breakup so often. but i never really mean it all the while.it`s my fault for comparing w u other ppl.
even if u had a new girl, i will still be waiting for u. cause ur too important for me to let go. and i couldnt just let go like that. waiting for u to come back to start afresh. one month, one year, few years down the road...
imissyou
5:07:00 pm
♥ Friday, January 28, 2011
my days haven't been good since the day u left. i didnt know how much i`ve hurt u that u want to be so alone. im trying my best not to text u, but i just cant let u go. ur the most important thing in my life, and i do not want to leave yet. im really sorry.
7:32:00 pm
♥ Wednesday, January 26, 2011
It just sucks to see u add that Taiwanese girl on facebook! :( But what can I say?I'm no longer anything to u. I thought I can move on but I guess ur too important in my live that it's so hard for me to do it. Sometimes I really wish I was as strong as u, u can leave as and when u like. God, give me strength to carry on ! I need to get over the guy who is already over me. Yes, of course it was easy for u. There's nth in the r/s for u. For me, it's tonnes of memories, love and pain. I'm not just any girl who will be willing to spend her life w another guy.till now, I still cant really believe u give up so easily. Pain was nv a good enough reason to leave for me. U?
Enough said, time for me to sleep! Good night all!
3:31:00 am
♥ Monday, January 24, 2011
i guess it`s officially over. i tried to talk but he thinks i left when i blast at him. i mean its normal for me to blast when i just fall asleep. worst when it`s only half an hr after i fall asleep. to u, im just a slut that clubs with different guys. but the fact they are just friends. purely friends. nothing more then friends. i think it`s time for me to move on since i`m no longer anything to him. he dont even want a proper break up. good bye lover, i really love u these years. thanks for everything. u may not be the best boyfriend, but i did enjoy my time with u. even thought i still cant forget what u`ve done,i`m still not prepared of it. but since u`re prepared and is already gone, i wish u all the best. take care and love u always.
10:54:00 pm
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I thought I was strong
Maybe I wasn't as strong as I thought. I thought I could go through everything without crying. Losing a lover and a good friend at the same time just sucks.
Just when I thought u could help me go through this tough time, u told me u think that I've never trust u before.I never expect this to come out, not from someone so close to me. Maybe it's time for me to be independent and grow up.
:'(
- Posted from my iPhone.
11:24:00 am
♥ Thursday, January 20, 2011
i want to grow up. i need to stop being like a child and cry over small matter! i need to have the courage to move on.
3:03:00 pm
♥ Wednesday, January 19, 2011
"how many more times can we start afresh before we both wear out? how many more times do we need to hurt each other before we’d let go? how much patience, tolerance and trust is needed to sustain this? how much love do i need to have for you to endure this?"
i trash everything out today.i told him i didnt feel happy at all, since his 21st birthday. a birthday dinner which he didnt bring me.our secondary schoolmate(june) boyfriend is his bunkmate.even when i know june is going for the dinner he choose to leave me alone.he reassured me that it's just going to be a dinner and after dinner he will meet me.so i went out with my best friends, while out. i plan to buy him a G shock watch and a birthday cake. through out the dinner june update what happen during the dinner.
she said two girls kiss my him on his cheeks. after dinner pester him to club.i was already on my way down to get a cake when he call to tell me he's going to the club.imagine,on ur boyfriend's birthday. u cant join him for dinner, he promise to be back after dinner which he didnt.ur friend tells u that two girl kiss ur guy, pester him to go to the club with them. and he went there. got dead drunk and have to send that bitch who kiss him home. after that i have to cab down to my place to pick him up again cause his bunkmate is my neighbour. i've been hurt since den. and was never really happy. can u imagine the pain i went through? this happen during september.
during june, he broke up with no reason. was dating another girl before we even break up. meet her almost every day. bring her to his place, let her into his room. let her shower and wear his shirt out to meet his friends. calls her pretty but call me xinyi.when he was enlisted to the army, calls us daily and tell us he misses us. all these pain which i never mention before, cause i think it's pointless.
if i had told u i was alr on the way to get a cake for u. and u return, this just means u suddenly remember that u have a gf waiting for u to be home to celebrate together.
im hurt too deep and too long to feel love. yes, u can try making me feel loved. but i doubt u do it. i sort of lost hope in this relationship. tired of pretending to be happy.
8:23:00 pm
♥ Sunday, January 16, 2011
went to camp inspire today.
it's a orientation camp for sec ones.
the moment i reach there, melvin tell me im in-charge of campfire.
campfire will be in july. theme will be rock concert~
i dont know what to do for it, like so unexpected. lucky it's only for one event.
11:40:00 am
♥ Tuesday, January 11, 2011
watched ghost must be crazy today.
actually i love the show.. laught till mad.
esp encik muthu! super cute. but 2nd part no so nice alr.
get married to ah gua ghost. like wtf la~!
added new song into my playlist! :)
going to sch this week with meiyan, kwok chun and kang wei.
visit mr chew, it has been along time..
11:16:00 pm
♥ Sunday, January 09, 2011
yesterday deric skidded right infront of me.
it happen so fast and it made me have thoughts abt taking up bike license.
i do not wish to ride already! :(
before taking up bike lessons, i didnt thought it will be so bad.
after taking den i see alot accidents. it really scares me.
the skid marks, the sparks images are still fresh in me.
lucky nothing much happen to him. minor damages and minor injuries.
1:10:00 pm
♥ Monday, January 03, 2011
why all taiwanese drama guys so sweet?!
been watching these two drama. over and over again.
why all the guys in the drama so sweet?
all so perfect and nice, all girls dream of having boyf like them.
but does these type of guy really exist in the real world?
i've decided to put the HC i once know deep inside my heart.
i guess he will nv come back...
maybe when he really come back, then i'll be really happy.
10:53:00 am
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2nd day of day. seriously, i'm still in holiday mood! dont feel like working at all!! apple got a glitch. it's alarm didnt ring since 2011. on 3rd jan den everything will go back normal. been drinking alot. when to boat quay w carmen and kelvin yest. 3 person finish a martel.. ginger beer with martel is shiokness! im kinda addicted to drinking. dead meat! i've decided to give the relationship the last try. im giving my last bit of energy to make it happen again. i hope u won't disappoint me, again.
12:19:00 am
♥ Saturday, January 01, 2011
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
what i did in 2010...
bought and customize my own helmet~
went to a thai pub for the first time in my life!
went to lionel's social night~
starting taking bike lessons and passed my RTT
meet andrea for the 1st time since our 18th birthday!
nothing much happened last year. felt like i wasted a year! :( relationship was on the rocks for the whole year. i hope 2011 will be a better year for me.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ENJOY UR WEEKEND~
2:40:00 pm
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