HAPPY BIRTHDAY C-JAE WONG LIPING~

i just came back from c-jae's chalet.

had super alot of fun. a long time since i had so much fun.

cake smashing, cans  spraying, kissing & hugging..

i burn myself sadly.. 2 blisters!

MS BIMBO CAI actually step on the hot burning charcoal..

how smart right? and another one while smking.

i`m going to die soon i guess, i smked the whole pack today.

drink 2 and a half cans of beer.

picture will be up soon~

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4:13:00 am

wide wake after 2 hours of sleep.

i`m crying for some stupid reason.

i just can't take the reason u gave.

there is a reason why i don`t want to tell u..

cause i don`t want to hear the end result.

seriously, i don`t want to see YOU!

so is marriage the real happy ending to relationships?

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4:53:00 am

i just got c-jae's birthday gift.

going for campfire meeting, after meeting going her place to help her.

sunday i`m going to malaysia with mummy~

seriously, i duno know why i`m EMO-ing.

i`m trying my best to be happy.

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1:04:00 pm

i will love you till forever..

seriously, i miss my long hair.

i can't wait for my hair to grow long~

how to make ur hair grow faster??

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7:51:00 pm

This goes out to someone that was

Once the most important person in my life

I didn't realize it at the time

I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so

I don't really expect you to either

It's just... I don't even know

Just listen...

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1:31:00 pm

i got this from andreas

I think the only reason which stops us from declaring that feeling is because we all thought others had chosen to move on, simply because others had shown no outer enthusiasm on “the thing”. To be honest, I’m born an extrovert. But even for an extrovert like myself, I feel it hard to express my yearning for a certain something/someone. I personally think that it all boils down to us feeling a sense of loneliness whenever we discussed our feelings. Who can deny that whenever we think back on a certain issue, we can’t help but feel a sense of regret for not being able to re-experience the occasion again? To hold onto something/someone, it takes more courage than to let go of it. Of course, many had chosen to bury that memory deep in their hearts, determined never to unfold it. Simple reason – it wouldn’t hurt as much. Why? Human being is a cruel species. If someone chooses to live in his/her own memory lane, she/he would be teased, scolded or even feared. The older we grow, the more memory we buried. Just because someone doesn’t say something about it, doesn’t mean she/he doesn’t miss it! All that I missed never fail to make me sad, with a tinge of regret. Sometimes even with tears in my eyes. On the other hand, to forget and let go isn’t an easy thing either. It takes as much courage too. Do you know – A senile patient often forgets where he/she lives at, but could remember some occasions which had happened decades ago? It just goes to prove that it simply isn’t easy to forget either. 

With this, I beseech you readers to search deep into your soul and think through the following,

(i) Is the occasion/someone worth your missing for?; 

(ii) Did your friend(s) really stopped missing something/someone?; 

(iii) Do you really have to share your missing for something/someone with anyone else?; 

(iv) What are you trying to prove?

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1:20:00 pm

went to vivo after school today with valerie.

went job hunting. and realise that all shop only hire full timers.

i`m still EMO-ing.. 

i know u care but do u have to say this?

at least say it in another way?

more encouraging way instead of "pouring cold water"?

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3:19:00 am

i know why i`ve been EMO lately!

aunty hong visit me today.

went to buy a white open toe heels~

it's freaking 3" high. HAHA.

me && boyf have been EMO-ing past few days.

went to watch don`t mess with the zohan.

was quite a nice movie. super furnie.

zohan with that dance~

welcome to ladylike-hood.. (LOL)

does this word even exist?

dresses && heels..

flats, skirts and tee.

this is the new me!

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11:00:00 pm

have been missing for the past few days..

didn't went to school either. wasn't feeling well.

nearly broke up with boyfriend on friday. =(.

super sad.

guess what people?

i`m going to change my dressing style to DRESS!

LOL. i know it`s very feminine!

but that`s what a 20 year old girl should dress right?

not always with a jeans and tee shirt.. HAHA.

i went shopping today and bought a dress!

i want to get a heels. a HIGH heels covered w open toe.

i tink i becoming more cha bo. HAHA.

that's a good thing i guess.

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3:09:00 am

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1:35:00 pm

i wana keep myself away from the world

EMO-ing

:'(

have been emo-ing for the past 10hours.

i duno what strike me. but i just feel super down.

normally i will want to drink when i`m down,

but today i just don`t feel like doing anything.

i will cry to myself for duno what reason.

i wana be left alone.

我不想为你掉泪 , 只想好好的活下去..

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3:36:00 pm

很想知道你现在的消息
不清楚自己是怎样的心情
那个曾经只给我依靠的肩膀 如今给了谁
时间改变了你我的样子
却留下了你爱我时的影子
那些曾经只给我流过的眼泪 如今为了谁
你和我不了了之的爱情
有一段不了了之的回忆
你记得我 还是已经忘记 谁为谁放弃
你和我不了了之的爱情
留下了不了了之的痕迹
你快乐吗？是否有了爱的她 要好好珍惜


时间改变了你我的样子
却留下了你爱我时的影子
那些曾经只给我流过的眼泪 如今为了谁
你和我不了了之的爱情
有一段不了了之的回忆
你记得我 还是已经忘记 谁为谁放弃
你和我不了了之的爱情
留下了不了了之的痕迹
你快乐吗？是否有了爱的她 要好好珍惜
你和我不了了之的爱情
有一段不了了之的回忆
你记得我 还是已经忘记 谁为谁放弃
你和我不了了之的爱情
留下了不了了之的痕迹
你快乐吗？是否有了爱的她 要好好珍惜
你和我不了了之的爱情 不再有不了了之的结局

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1:16:00 pm

happy 14th monthsary dear.

wasn't really happy cause we're walkin aimlessly @ town.

went home to watch the happening.

some science fiction show.

i gain 1.3kg!! LOL.

of course gain weight la. everyday at home shake leg.

HAHA. i need to get  a job soon. if not my driving lesson die.

no money pay for lessons. 

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1:11:00 pm

on fathers' day. i thought it`ll be nice if i miss boyfriend's dinner && company daddy.

who knows? when i wake up, daddy is out with his friends. HAHA..

i`m now stuck at home eating instant noodles.

pathetic~

i`m still not sure how to do my maths~ ARGH!!!

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6:53:00 pm

i`m back from malaysia! HAHA..
went to a relative`s place && i tell u, the place is 5 times bigger den my house..
the camera is not with me, but i`ll post the pictures when i get it.. =)
i came back with daddy. bought quite a number of stuff la~
my relative have got 5 cars ok~
my 19 year old cousin owns a car. fucking lucky.
i got a test tomorrow and i need to study for it.
super duper tired~


*edited*

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1:33:00 pm

wednesday night = ladies night.

went to powerhouse with amelia.

it was a fun night.saw sis's friend there.

HAHA. same age as my sis, this girl is alr clubbing like crazy..

my sisteR? haha.. like when i was 18. never club one.. LOL.

clubbing doesn't run in the blood la.

drink 3 tequila shots.

wake up today && bake cupcakes for dearie.

i`ll be away for the weekend..

going to visit relative`s place

no boyfriend, no handphone..

my line got no autoroam so u won`t be able to reach me.

*pictures will be up after i come back*

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10:29:00 pm

You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.

Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

Trying to cope with conditions which you think are beyond your capabilities has led to considerable anxiety and stress. You now feel that you are not capable of coping with this situation and indeed any situation which could arise from what you consider to be your personal inadequacy.

got it from http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

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1:32:00 am

DQ singing Drama Queen.

friend impersonate DQ

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12:29:00 am

apple is coming out w the iphone 2.0~

the it's going to be available in Singapore soon.

new iPhone now has more languages..

Maps with GPS && fast access to the net.

boyfriend wanted to buy a iPod nano..

he asked if he should get a iPhone.

so i told him. since ur getting a new phone,

might as well get a iPhone?

it cost abt the same as getting a new phone and a nano.

anw, i made dearie super mad at me.

and he's not talking to me till now.

=(.. sad. i`m too lazy to get a job!!

i just dont feel like workin anymore.

enjoying the life now.

but i have to work sooner or later,

if not no money to pay bills~

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3:11:00 pm

Romance Mathematics
Smart man + smart woman = romance
smart man + dumb woman = affair
dumb man + smart woman = marriage
dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

Office Mathematics
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
smart boss + dumb employee = productions
dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

Shopping Maths
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs
a woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understandher at all.

LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs andcackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

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6:26:00 pm

i woke up w a super bad tummy ache or cramp?
i duno. it just hurt so much that i can't go back to sleep.
ALMOST UNBEARABLE.
it`s like there a hungry worm in my tummy eating up the walls.

anyway, the flowers are 1 year old!! HAHA.

baby gave it to me on 22 Apr 2007.

Morgan's love body lotion && intrusion Eau De Parfum are my new WANTS.

i hope i get them for birthday~! HAHA.

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11:53:00 am

outdated picture.

had steamboat at bobson's place last night.

watched 3 kingdom and fall asleep. =X

going to watch kung fu panda later.

tomorrow going to have BBQ @ ben's place.

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10:32:00 pm

hmm. i`m back in school.. LOL.
playing warcraft fan on facebook..
i got a 42 for my maths test. =(..
actually it`s not that bad la. LOL..
alot people got single digit score.

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1:58:00 pm

watched Sex And The City w boyf in town today.

it was a super nice show.

&& sarah jessica is pretty~

went to visit his granny at Alexander Hospital after that.

after that had buffet @ cafe 2000 w his parents.

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12:04:00 am

can u believe this is actually in singapore?

i wana go && explore this place!!

i`ll make boyfriend go w me cause it's near our house~

hwa chong campfire is near. Mayflower GG campfire is also coming~

since 43843792743 days since i last went to a campfire.

tomorrow dearie && i are going to BUS our way to town.

his suppose to meet me at my house at 12pm.

but he just went out. hope his not late tomorrow!

good night people. got to hit the sack!

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1:03:00 am

only people who knew and undergone the feeling of losing someone precious,
will understand the importance of cherishing.

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4:41:00 pm

i went to make my passport today.

enrol for my BTT.

i`m going to malaysia next weekend.

no smoking. restricted shopping!

dear was invited by granny to come w us.

eleven of us going. HAHA.

SUPER TIRED.

i duno why. i feel like sleeping so much.

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11:09:00 am

1st to see you msn-in a FACEBOOK girl.
next u tell me u want take racing license.
u only think about yourself. wanna feel how does racing feel like.
but have u thought about how your love ones feel?
what if u lose control or something && fall off the bike,
another come and ramp over u?
aren't you going to die?
i rather you go off road. at least the most only fracture.
ur still alive. never think about the consequense. count urself a rider..

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11:53:00 pm

i always tot that i love my bf.

but i nv expect that i loved him that much.

i completely have to no mood to work after the fight.

i always think that no matter what happens, i'll be ok.

guess i`m not as strong as i imagine..

was suppose to count stock.

but i missed 15 pairs of jeans, 21 tops and 45 accessories.

customer wants a size 29, i gave her a 27~~

i did not smile for the whole day.

as a customer service associate, i should be ALWAYS smiling.

this is how much it affected me.

i couldn't sleep for the night.

was crying. fear that he'll leave me.

i even have nightmare when he hugs me to sleep.

i fear waking up to see him missing.

i`m seriously sorry for what happen darling.

i`m trying me best to show i bother.

today is the last day in levi's

it's a nice company.

katherine cried. it's sad that everyone is leaving.

i hope i get a new job soon~

never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.

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11:42:00 pm

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